pretend.

****disclaimer***** i am apologizing ahead of time for the language an frustration that is about to go into this.

i hate when people pretend. fuck! if your mad at me be mad. i am done dealing with this bull shit.
if your one of my best friends, then be there. just stop pretending that we are something we are not. or that we are not something that we both know we are. i hate this. i am getting the shaft in all these relationships.
i feel used and abused. and fuck i hate this. its a dumb ass way to handle yourself. pretending is just a way to delay what is really going on, its like painting over a lava lamp... even if you cover it up there is still stuff going on inside. i just have such a hard time pretending and i dont want to take the brunt of it anymore. i have guys pretending like they are not my friends left and right. one doesnt want his girl friend to know were friends, and i a hiding relationships so my roommate doesnt get mad. what the hell... i feel like i am in jr high. fuck it.

so here is what im doing... my new method is this... i saw "bull shit. i dont care" and then i follow just that.
so bull shit. i dont care..


have a good night world. im done, and fuck all you pretenders.




here is a hint where i am, come find me of your done pretending.

enjoy.

hillary elizabeth.